Saturday, March 16, 2013

Flashes of Euphoria

There's a rare and intense feeling I get, usually when I'm out in nature, that's a sudden whirlwind of fire and water stirring in my soul. A burning passion and excitement for life and a flood of tranquility where everything feels like its going to be OK. When it happens, I know that I'm exactly where I need to be. It feels like the world has stopped turning just for that one moment in time and everything is clear. It is a moment of complete euphoria.

A moment of euphoria hit me the other morning when I was on a run before work. It was dark when I left the house. I ran the 3 mile loop once blindly and then on the second time around the loop the sun started to rise and expose the most spectacular view of my surroundings; a clear blue sky, a calm ocean and huge snow capped peaks in every direction. It was the first time since I've been on the island that it was clear enough to see all the beauty that was surrounding me. To top it off birds were singing and I saw multiple bald eagles. It couldn't have been a more perfect run.

It was in that moment that I knew that I am exactly where I'm suppose to be. I feel so blessed to have this opportunity to be back in Alaska doing the job I'm doing with some truely amazing people. After a period of fighting internal battles, lonliness and trying to find meaning, I am so grateful to finally be here in this state of peace knowing that I am were I need to be at this stage in my life.

Saturday, March 9, 2013

Believe in magic and you will see it

Ball lightning is an unexplained natual phenomina that is described as an act of magic. They are luminous orange and blue, grapefruit sized spheres of lightning that streak across the sky during a thunderstorm. They typically last up to 20 seconds and seem to appear out of nowhere and then vanish into thin air. Ball lightening is rare, unpredictable and infrequent. Few are lucky enough to experience it

I experienced ball lightning. I still find it difficult to believe that it actually happened. It was one of those moments in life that seemed too perfect to ever happen. A moment where I forgot if I was awake or asleep because life felt so much like a dream. No other point in time mattered because no other memory could live up to that moment and no future could possibly exceed it. I have to belive that even though I can't see it right now, it's still there and I will experience it again. Just because something is rare or feels like magic, doesn't mean it doesn't exist or can't occur. It just means you have to believe in it to see it.